When the potential for something good in my life comes up, I tend to avoid talking about it very much. I often feel as though if I share the news with too many other people…the stars will become misaligned and the good thing will turn sour. This has happened in the past-more times than I would like to remember and so when things are going well I tend to fall silent publicly and when things aren’t so good-I’m more vocal.
With that being said, things are a little better here. I have been in a negative mindframe for several weeks now-more or less a month-and on Monday…after a little verbal spat with a new coworker that stemmed from a false perception on my part (and a case of PMS to just make things all the more fun)…I realized that I had to change my state of mind for the better, and things just weren’t going to improve with me feeling so negative. And so from that moment I have been working at changing my perspective…both mentally and physically both in the professional sense and personal sense.
Mentally I have decided to try to just go with the flow, especially where work is concerned. I’m trying my hardest just to take things as they are, not take things too personally and generally going with the flow. In a more physical sense I’m making an attempt at trying to meet new people, be friendly…and hopefully find things to do to break up the monotony of going to work then coming home. That was more or less my life back home in Jersey and I really hate to fall back into that trap.
In the future I hope not to be so evasive about things that are happening in my personal life (though, my professional life will no longer be discussed here-at least not in any specific way). For now though, I’m not happy about telling too much here. I prefer the privacy of my written journal.
13 Comments
August 6, 2008 at 2:07 pm
Its great that things are going well. I know I experience many situations when I did not want to shoot myself in the foot, but we just all have to roll with it.
As long as you find a small way to celeberate moments like this, then that’s all that matters. At least you are not like these celeberty types that needs flashing cammeras in the face, in order to validate any goo they have done.
August 6, 2008 at 4:05 pm
I’ve heard it said that we can choose to be happy, and I guess there’s something to that. You’ve had so many major changes in your life lately, maybe it makes sense to just make it all as easy on yourself as possible and, as you say, “go with the flow.” There was stress in making the decision to move, then stress in planning the move, and stress in actually moving, and stress in settling into your new home/job … You deserve to just kick back and take things as they come.
August 6, 2008 at 6:02 pm
You’re wise.
I am the same way about not talking about things that are going good. It does seem to mess them up.
August 6, 2008 at 11:00 pm
Oh my mind is out of wack
Oh my hormone is out of wack.
Oh my spiritual self is out of wack
and my guess my stars is out of wack.
But that just me.
August 7, 2008 at 9:29 am
hey don’t hold yourself too much either..sometimes its good to get your thoughts out in the open, be it in personal life, or professional one.
August 7, 2008 at 9:51 am
You do what you have to do with your privacy. Not everything has to be shared and everyone who comes here to read your insights will understand/respect that.
Being in a new place is hard. I hope you begin an upswing soon.
August 7, 2008 at 10:13 am
Hey, Sil. You should do postings where all the positive things you are experiencing are in invisotext so that you’re not actually physically putting anything out there that could be construed as baiting the universe into turning against you.
August 7, 2008 at 7:01 pm
I think you are heading in the right direction and definitely have a great frame of mind! Good for you girl!
August 7, 2008 at 10:10 pm
PMS can take over an entire week of my life making it virtually impossible to be positive or happy or even rational about anything!!
August 8, 2008 at 3:14 am
i used to be real rigid and stuff. these days i try to be more you know, loose. to just go with the flow. and live one day at a time. i find that it’s so much better to live this way.
just write stuff you feel like writing. it’ll do you good.
August 8, 2008 at 5:59 am
I think we all try to hide the good stuff a bit just in case we jinx it… I know I do anyway
It’s far easier to focus on the bad, plus I find blog-readers like a good whinge 
I hope you’re positive frame of mind works; I find it’s always good to step back, take a breath and focus your mind on good instead of bad. It does make all the difference, doesn’t it?
August 8, 2008 at 6:24 am
Hope that things get better soon.. Share what you feel and feel what you share… That is your perogative to write what YOU want.. You always have a good topic, whether it be about your job or your own personal life.. Don’t worry about sharing every little detail.. “go with the flow” good advice..
August 9, 2008 at 7:41 pm
I’ve never heard of a job yet where there was not trouble with coworkers. I think it’s impossible.